160221 Are you happy now?

Are you happy now?

In this whole week, I have reversed whole thing I ate at dinner.
I can't stand with this, I have to throw up. After this, I asked to my self, "Am I happy now? So drunk, all thrown up, am I happy?"

You said I'm scary.
What do you mean? I don't know what you meant, but I guess,
maybe that was what I said or maybe you meant I am too smart.
I guess...
I am too smart for you to read my mind and to follow my lead.
Now I think so that you were scared about that.

But against your thought, I'm a so simple and weak guy.
When you said you don't like me to do something, I stop.
When you said you don't like me to say something, I stop.
So simple to you.
That's because I love you.

but...

If you don't understand, I can't do anything anymore because more I do something, more you don't like me, or you might hate me.

I just....

have loved you.

That's all.

You said we should break up.

I said I get that if you meet me just one more time.

I don't know you really gonna meet me.

If you don't meet me, and we break up,
will you be happy?

and are you happy now?

Maybe I am still crazy, maybe I am still insane.
I don't know, I don't care.