なんでだろうなぁ どうして舞花から返事が来るだけで心臓がバクバクして、 吐き気がするんだろう・・・今日はとりあえずバイトあったし、ちょっとだけ飲んで寝ることで抑えられたけど、 うわーキツイ。毎回そう。ここ2週間ほどね。昨日は返事してくれただけ…

I didn't drink today. I don't know exactly myself but I guess, I got her replies most ever in this 2 weeks, and she was about to make a date to see me for the last.Yes, for the last.The last, but it is huge for me.But first of all, if I co…

It was... about to be in a hotel with spa today. But I did sucks, so it couldn't be happened.I blame myself. I made this.I think I should get over her so many time. But every time I get a reply from her, I happen to cry loud. I can't stop …

I don't think I can sleep without alcohol every night.I mean, this is so hard to stand alone.What can I do now...What can I do now... Seriously.

Are you happy now?In this whole week, I have reversed whole thing I ate at dinner. I can't stand with this, I have to throw up. After this, I asked to my self, "Am I happy now? So drunk, all thrown up, am I happy?"You said I'm scary. What …

♪悲しい過去も 今は過ぎ去った思い出 付き合ってた頃は怒ってばかりで 別れてから「ごめんね」なんとなく歌っぽいから書いてみた朝4時半、 とても喉が渇いた僕は起きてしまった。 スマホの画面がついていることに気づき、誰かから連絡が来たんだとわかった。…

日記を書くのはひさしぶり・・・と思ったけど半月前に書いてるんだったなんだかんだ悩み詰めたときしか書かないのかな。今まさに悩み詰めてるわけで、毎日（とは言っても4日目だが）泣き、酒の量は増え、食ったものは吐き、昨日はなんと血まで吐いた。（さす…